Suddenly, I feel at peace. It's as if some great turmoil within me, a hurricane which swept my insides from side to side has calmed and euphoric calm has settled. I can smile again. I don't feel the prickling of guilt, regret, doubt. I am swimming in a stream of life, knowing full well that the end will come. It must come. It is better to live and die than to live in a paralysis.