Sometimes, I can't help but feel that there is some force guiding me through life. I don't mean god, but maybe some sort of detached intelligence, like fate. Who knows. But in the momenst of lonliness, sadness, alienation, a sense that someone or something is looking out for me, is comforting. It gives a reason to my losses and makes my wins more meaningful. It is more bearable to live a life believing that the next day can be good because somehow it has been predestined by my past actions to be good. As silly as it may be, I take comfort in it. It doesn't take away my guilt in anythin that goes wrong, but I can overstep my guilt and perhaps see a silver lining in what could otherwise be a tragedy. I can look an event and see an offshoots of what could have been, where I could have turned in a different direction and would have been a different me. And in those moments, my conviction that I am being guided to a greater purpose becomes all the more apparent. Why would I choose this path instead of another one? There has to be a reaosn why this was the outcome right? So why not believe that the outcomes lies in the enbetterment of the future?