I wish I could turn back the clock. There are so many people I want to talk to again, but they're gone be it because of death or some circumstances that deleted them from my life. I want to see my childhood friend again and play like we used to play. To think, we were all so poor, but we were so happy. I want to see my old teachers and classmates and my parents, youger and too maybe happier. I'd want to see my grandmother, whom I also miss so much. With her, died the last hold I had on my childhood. I want to see Ben and Yulia. I want to see the girl whose name I can't recall anymore, but I will always remember the hug we shared because it was my first hug. I want once again to witness my old crushes, victories, and defeats. I want it all back now, when I feel most vulnerable and unsure of where to go. Because the past is already a well laid out road and the future is hidden from me. I'm just left to hope that things will turn out for the better. He'll find me. I won't die alone.